There are no geckos here. No tokays. In fact, there seem to be no cicadas either. My sister's house is so quiet. Last night I laid awake for awhile marveling about how quiet it is here. I didn't sleep very much--jet lag messes with your mind a little. I was up by 4 am ready to eat supper since it was 6 pm in Thailand.
The quietness is just one of the small adjustments I'm making to being here. Last night as we left San Francisco and as I watched the lights of the city fade behind me, I felt this sadness/fear in the pit of my stomach. I wondered, "Can I really pull this off?" No, I'm not having second thoughts about my decision to come home, but I just feel far away from my home. I mean that on both levels: far from my Thai home and far emotionally from my American home.
I know the good things will start coming soon. Already this weekend I'm getting together with two friends. I reminded myself this morning that I felt this way last year and that by the end of the summer I was sad to leave the states. Also, I told myself, "God is still leading. He was with you in Thailand and he'll be with you as you shape your new life in California."
4 comments:
Well, I can express mail you my resident tukay anytime you want! :)
Hope you find your "home" wherever you may be!
It sounds like you are missing Thailand enough to satisfy me! Glad you're meeting up with friends and experiencing at least a little reverse culture shock! We miss you!
Yes, Doris, do mail me the tukay. :)
Laura, I was really missing Thailand in church this morning. After church I met a former missionary family...that made me happy.
Funny, I think the last thing I'd miss about Thailand is the church! Let's see when my turn comes...
I hope you have fun this weekend meeting up with friends! I miss you here!
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